Am I sleepwalking at night?? Arghh!! Xkn kot. Tapi aku sendiri pon x pasti gak. Sebab time tu macam sedar x sedar ja. Takut la. Takut jadi lagi macam dulu. Dhla budak2 ni duk cita dengar bunyi baby nangis la. Adehh. Nak wat cmna ni? As long as nothing bad happen, I assume it is okay. Huhu. Tuhan tolong saya. T_T

I never complain on the way you treated me. I just swallow it all. Because I know that will bring nothing if i drag it to you. 

Lately I've been way too emotional. But I kept it with myself, not showing it to you. God, the way you speak to me, I can feel that you are not like me that much. I don't know where I went wrong this time. 

I stopped bothering you. Keep your private life away from my acknowledge. I changed myself. For the sake of you. What's more do you want?

If you keep on treating me like this I'm afraid that I have to go on with my plan. I stick to that house just because of you. You are the only reason for me to stay. If you keep on insisting and denying my existence in that house, then its time for me to move out from your life.

Like I said, I don't want us to be a couple. I don't need your love. All I'm asking is to treat me like others. Don't discriminate me. Please. I hold this up for almost like half of my life. Just make sure I'm not giving up yet because once I give up, I won't turn back. 

I love you, as a friend. So please, appreciate it. At least shows some respect on me. I am no human if you treat me like this. I try my best here to keep our friendship lasting longer. Now its up to you whether you want it lasting or not.   

.::outing- enjoy::.

Im having so much fun with dea yesterday! Watching movie, a game of bowling and one thing that never cross my mind for me to play, snooker. It was superb! I wish that there will be just the three of us so that dea can concentrate and talk more with me. But thats okay. Im enjoyed. Dea happy. Im so grateful. What else you want more? I have everything right now except his heart. Never mind. I dont want him to love me either. I just want him to treat me nicely. Thats it. And one thing that never change; my love on you. I love you, dea.