.::the-end::.

Remember when I said that its all up to you whether you want it lasting or not? Well, it seems that you don't want it lasting. And for your information, I already give up on everything. 

Give up. Fed up. Stress up. Tired. Frustrated. That what I feel right now.

Kalau dia perasan la, dah cukup sebulan ktorg tak bertegur sapa. Yupp. Sebulan. We are not talking to each other. Not a single word came out neither from his mouth nor mine. 

I don't know how he felt, but for me that was the unimaginable thing to be done. Well, my very best friend, never expect to be this bad.

 

If you want to know what i feel right now, about our friendship, it is zero; I feel nothing  anymore. Yeah, we had known for almost 5 years, we had been best friend, but I already erased it from my memory. 

Tiap2 hari aku tunggu dengan harapan ko akan cakap something pasal kita. Tapi benda tu x berlaku. Tiap2 hari aku tunggu ko tegur aku tapi sama jgak, x berlaku. Aku nak cakap, tapi kenapa aku ja yg asyik mula dulu? Ko x rasa apa2? 

If this what you really want (your silence), I can accept it. What can I do? Its always up to you. But this time it won't be anymore.

What enough is enough. I don't wanna fight anymore. I just want to give up.

You will be free after this. 2 months to go. After that I won't bother your life anymore.  

  

.::change-start-accept::.

When I think back about the things happened to me, each one of them came  for a reason. Same goes to what happening right now. Why fate always destined us to meet again after a disaster struck and tear our friendship apart? I can't even face you after those horrible incidents. To be truth, I can't even think about you, because whenever I did that suddenly the worst feeling hit me and put my confidence to the ground. 

Maybe God still want us to be like we used to be together as before. And I'm willing to do EVERYTHING just to fix my wrong and  make it normal again. But the real thing is, how I should get it started? With you in front of me, I become speechless and freeze to do a thing. 

I know nothing about your thought on me. Maybe you already forgotten, maybe you still angry at me, or maybe you just pretend as everything was fine. That's the reason. I can't read your inside. Watching the way treat me, I considered myself still not been forgiven by you. Well, I just guessing. The real, only you know the best.

Bear this to your mind. I come here again not to make your life more miserable. I come here not to interrupt with your personal life. I come here not to give you a bad memories. I just want to take this chance to redeem all my wrong doings upon you. Please accept me again as your bestest buddies, like you and I used to be. I beg you.